I remember being 14, an innocent age where heartbreaks and betrayal had not yet made a debut in my life. The age of innocence, of eagerness, of dreams to grow up becoming someone, something of value to the world.
That was 10 years ago. I am now 24 years old as we speak. Still slightly innocent and eager. I have yet to decipher what my existence can bring into the world and no, this sister hasn't gotten her life figured out yet.
The subconscious in me is aware that I have a lot to work on. No doubt have I achieved in making my old folks proud, got a degree, a good paying job to spoil myself rotten with (in spite of working my butt off day after day to deserve that amount of money), found a hobby that I have a natural flair for... There are also other aspects of my being that I would like to improve on. There is talent, but has that talent been bestowed in vain? There is a mind which tells right from wrong, but is the heart strong enough to only respond to the right?
It is this type of questions that have been occupying my train of thought as of lately. Perhaps it's called the early 20's syndrome? Only God can tell.
So I got to sitting down to reevaluate my life. I suppose it is only normal for a person to have a divine intervention of this sort once he has reached a certain point in life. There is a blessing there for it is niggling at the back on your head for a reason. Now that the plan has been laid out, the execution will have to follow suit. The first step is always the hardest to make. Stay strong dear heart, persevere and getcha head in the game! Wish me luck in this endeavour. May Allah help and guide you through yours.
Love,
Arda.
