2020

Back then before we crossed the border towards this new decade I had a list of intentions that would alleviate me to become someone that would make myself feel utmost content. Little did I know, the fate of the world was going to play a major role in this journey of mine. How subtle is God in His craft that is life? It has never ceased to amaze me. In spite of the debacle that is turning the world upside down, peace seems to have made itself present in my universe. It feels almost morally wrong to be happy during this tumultuous time. This is when I learn that the comfort of home, presence of loved ones (and albeit virtually), favourite pastimes and striking small daily goals are the essentials that make me who I truly am - which in turn purifies my state of mind and soul. I had been searching high and low for the time, drive and energy to come through. It really took the world to stop in its tracks in order for this humble plan of mine to take place. And for that, I give thanks every day. May I always be reminded to seize the opportunity to bask in this temporary bliss.

Turning 24

I remember being 14, an innocent age where heartbreaks and betrayal had not yet made a debut in my life. The age of innocence, of eagerness, of dreams to grow up becoming someone, something of value to the world.

That was 10 years ago. I am now 24 years old as we speak. Still slightly innocent and eager. I have yet to decipher what my existence can bring into the world and no, this sister hasn't gotten her life figured out yet.

The subconscious in me is aware that I have a lot to work on. No doubt have I achieved in making my old folks proud, got a degree, a good paying job to spoil myself rotten with (in spite of working my butt off day after day to deserve that amount of money), found a hobby that I have a natural flair for... There are also other aspects of my being that I would like to improve on. There is talent, but has that talent been bestowed in vain? There is a mind which tells right from wrong, but is the heart strong enough to only respond to the right?

It is this type of questions that have been occupying my train of thought as of lately. Perhaps it's called the early 20's syndrome? Only God can tell.

So I got to sitting down to reevaluate my life. I suppose it is only normal for a person to have a divine intervention of this sort once he has reached a certain point in life. There is a blessing there for it is niggling at the back on your head for a reason. Now that the plan has been laid out, the execution will have to follow suit. The first step is always the hardest to make. Stay strong dear heart, persevere and getcha head in the game! Wish me luck in this endeavour. May Allah help and guide you through yours.

Love,
Arda.

You

If distance is what we need
to help us grow
Perhaps distance is the answer.

And if you were mine
always have been mine
from a time way before.
What's distance.